Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Mommy Guilt

I don't know how it happens, but mommy guilt always seems to interrupt my day and make me feel like an inadequate mother.

Like yesterday when I took Rafael for his wellcheck and found out he had a sinus infection. At the doctor last month, the doctor told me his stuffy nose was due to remaining amniotic fluid in his system, so I never really worried about it. At what point did it become a sinus infection and why didn't I notice the change? How long has my little guy been sick?

This morning I was nursing Rafael and Michaela was playing nearby when she came up to us and asked to be picked up. Usually I'll pick her up and snuggle, but since Rafael hasn't been feeling well he's been really restless while eating, so I was trying really hard to concentrate on getting some food in him. Michaela was NOT happy that I wasn't paying attention to her and decided to throw herself down on the ground in a tantrum. Later, I managed to get Rafael down for a nap so I ignored the fact that my house is in serious need of some cleaning and sat down to read some books with her.

Sometimes I think we were absolutely crazy to have kids this close in age, but I can't imagine my life without either of them in it. I love them both so much and although I know it's completely unrealistic, I want to always be there for both of them all the time. How do you deal with mommy guilt and knowing that some things are going to slip through the cracks?


Kristin J said...

You are human not perfect so give yourself a break. Know that you are doing the best you can. Your kids are loved, hugged and kissed, fed and cuddled. It is so hard when that guilt sneaks up and makes you feel inadequate. I see what a great job you are doing and in a few months it will get easier to divide your time.

Anonymous said...

I say Amen! to Kristin's comment. Your children are loved who cares if there are extra toys on the floor. You're doing great babe!
Smooches. Amy M

Anonymous said...

"There will be years for cleaning and cooking
But children grow up when we are not looking
Cleaning and scrubbing can wait till tomorrow
Cuz babies grow fast, we learn to our sorrow
So settle down cobwebs, dust go to sleep... See More
I'm cuddling my baby, and babies don't keep"

not sure where this came from.. but i love it!!! your babies come first and enjoy every second :)

love your blogs btw..cant stop reading both of them!

sara s